I can say,
there is something wrong with me
day by day
I just feel empty, my soul screams lonely
I believe, if I can slash my chest
I will find my heart and lungs wounded
I cann’t get out of this distress
Sounds crazy but I feel I am haunted
In my lonely world
Where there are only me and me
My heart beat plead to be heard
That there is still a lil space for my enemy
Inside..
It is something unexplained
It is something unexpected
I talk to God,
“God! Forgive me..
I should be realize
in my deepest sorrow
in my desperation
You came to me
and calmed myself down
You sent me someone
who cured my pain
with his love and care
fixed my broken life
colored my gloomy time
burned my desire
with his smile and laugh
brought me to the fun relationship.
But, what?
I was still leave a little space for ‘the past’
someone who hurted me over and over again,
who filled my head with complicated things,
who didn’t care was I still alive
who made me cry every night,
who made me realized that love was fierce,
who never appreciated of the love I brought,
and who never loved me back.
He doesn’t deserve!
What a fucking stupid girl who wanna love
someone who made herself died inside!”
I must be sinful
I don’t wanna be unfaithful
I don’t wanna disappointed
someone who cured me
who loved me.
I try to lie to myself
But it doesn’t work
And if you want to know
I still leave a lil space in my heart for you
But it still doesn’t make sense to come back to you
Let it stay there inside
Let it rest in peace
I’ll go with my own love
